Well, the title refers to the both the triathlon side and the relationship side.
SUniG was held yesterday – a 750m swim and a 7km run. I came in 4th individually, which was better than I expected. The competition was pretty strong, especially in the swim. I realised that my swim needs a whole lot of work. I came out of the water in the middle of the pack, but managed to run my way and pass 4 others or so to finish 4th. I guess the most satisfying part was comleteing the entire run and finishing stringly – surprising myself. At the finish line, my team mates and coach were all impressed by my strong run and finish: that was a real affirmation for me. Well, that’s one race down. Tri factor coming next – the race that I trained 16 weeks for. I’m sticking to a performance goal of 2:45. PR, here I come.
He surprised me in my house yesterday returning home from SuniG, I found fresh red roses scattered along the stiarcase leading to my room, and there he was, holding a stack of drawing block papers reminding me of how beautiful our relationship was. I realise I still love him a lot, and am really thankful for having him. He said that he realised how much I’ve done and put into this relationship and how it really isn’t easy for me. He promised to change, to stop expecting so much of me, to stop pushing so far physically because there’s so much more to us than that. I hope it is for real this time. I know ending it would have broken his heart so badly, I know he lpves me way more than I love him. I promise to give this my all, perhaps I’ll never reach his level, but it’ll be everything I got. A wonderful saturday spent cuddling and talking in my room, beautiful dinner at a great cafe, and grocery shopping the night away. The best things in life are sometimes the simplest things – times spent with loved ones, talking about our hopes and dreams, about our future, about what’s been going on. Perhaps I’m slowly finding it, the real important things in life – friends, family and realtionships with those around me. I may not be showy in my affections or open with my displays of affection, but I do whatever I can for those around, even of it means having less time for myself. He is a reminder of what is important, a reminder that work, grades and being the best isn’t everything. Love life, and pursue what catches your heart.