Waves of Change
The sea is a wondrous thing, and its associations with my life are numerous, so is its resonance with life. As a triathlete, the sea or the open water is the most essential feature in training and racing. Everything starts with it, and is done around it. It’s unpredictability and constant motion is the greatest challenge, and the key to conquering the open water swim, is to be one with the sea. To understand the currents, to move along with the ups and downs of the waves. To breathe when the tide takes you upwards, to sight when you’re atop a wave. You put your head down to swim when waves instruct you to, when it brings you down and immerses you whole.
Sometimes, our lives are inundated by these waves of change. When nothing seems to stay constant, and everything is couched in unpredictability. it is often our greatest fear to be unsure and uncertain of what is to come, for we’ve been conditioned to prize comfort and stability above all. The waves of change have taken me all over the place these few weeks, to places that I want to go, and also to very unpleasant places. In the end, you invariably end up in a much different place and situation from where you started. I lament the change but also try to accept it. Some changes upset me, some changes excite me. Along the way as you get swept along by the currents, and you lose some things. I’ve lost someone who I didn’t learn to treasure; I didn’t hang on. If I did, I wouldn’t have lost. It’s almost surreal, how one person can be the best part of you, and then all in an instant, gone from your life completely. I wish we were at least still friends, but it seems like I’ve incurred his hatred of sorts.
Each day I drift about in the ever-changing currents of the sea of life, slowly learning the skills of surviving. Relax, I tell myself, it is just like open-water swimming. Impose your will on life, just as you would swim to get to where you want to in the sea, but along the way, you have to play by the rules of life, just as you have to adjust to the waves and tides of the ocean. Sometimes you mis-time a breath and end up choking on water, a small hiccup, but nothing serious. Although the journey will never get easier, with experience, we learn to make it more pleasant. Be as one with life, do not fight what is stronger than you, but stay the course and one day, you’ll get there.