Its your 3rd date.
A movie is a good idea. You’ve known the person for a while now and have been chatting and getting to know him/her. Its a special one.
Popcorn always go with movie, right?
Reaching over to get it.
Whispering to pass it.
Hands accidentally touching (for the first time).
It’s a kind of connection,
that I have never experienced with you cos popcorn is too disgustingly unhealthy for you.
This makes me sad.
It jolted me when I read this, and reminded me of who I used to be, and how I was always the centre of my own universe, putting my own needs first. I guess it hurts people around you without you even realizing it. Yet deep down I know I am still this way. It’s been hard trying to gain some semblance of control over everything around me, it’s been hard trying to make everyone understand that as an athlete, you would do whatever it takes to be at the top of your game. But they just can’t understand why you are so goddamned uptight, and so I oblige, to try to make everyone else happy – at the expense of my own happiness. Most people can’t imagine how horrid it is to not have the slightest semblance control over where your own life is heading.